You Are what i want, What i Need <3

What is there to live for now?

2011-12-13T00:55:00.002+08:00

As the title states, what is there to live for now?

Honestly, there's no point in hiding the truth, but if letting the truth out meant losing you, don't screw that thought.

Someone point me in the right direction. I really feel hopeless now. I don't know what to do anymore, why i exist even. Seriously. All these insecurities just make me feel like giving up. I just can't take it anymore.

Feelings

2011-11-28T23:05:00.002+08:00

I really don't know what my feelings are anymor and more importantly, i don't know what/why i feel like this. I feel like i don't know myself anymore, not like i ever did to begin with. Someone out there who truly knows me, please knock some sense back into my stupid little brain of mine so i can get rid of all this nonsense and set my priorities straight. Someone out there who is kind enough to point out my mistakes, please do so immediately before i really lose it.

P.S. i think i feel different about you now.

Goodbye.

2011-10-15T18:54:00.001+08:00

F*** all this bullshit

F*** feelings

Why the F*** am i even alive?

I just screw up shit.

Kthxbai

Second Thoughts

2011-10-14T19:55:00.002+08:00

Thank goodness no one ever reads this anymore. Everyone thinks it's dead. Awesome.

I know i shouldn't be feeling like this. But this is honestly from the bottom of my heart. If by any chance you read this, i hope you don't freak out or over-react or whatever. Just take this as a message from me yeah?

I am so glad where we have come so far. After all these ups and downs, it is truly wonderful that we are still friends. I've enjoyed every moment of it. I want to be there through your best, and through your worst. Even though you don't believe in me, i still believe in you. No matter what.

Maybe i am living in denial. Who knows?

It's been quite a while

2010-12-02T20:40:00.002+08:00

So yes as the title suggests, it's been quite a while since i last blogged. About 2 months i guess? xD Okay so basically i don't even know what to blog now. I think twitter has basically wiped out facebook and blogging from my life xD

Training
Has been quite decent so far i guess? I think i'm coping well. Training better and stuff? And yes tuesday afternoon was by far the MOST ENJOYABLE training session i've ever had in a long long time :/ Taiti with rishi, Malcolm, Joel, and Jialiang was uber fun(ny) :D LET'S DO IT ANOTHER TIME ;D

This hols
Has been boring, i haven't gone out in like a month or so? AND my schedule is like, sleep,eat,polo,sleep,swimming,eat,sleep. AND THE WHOLE CYCLE REPEATS ITSELF EVERYDAY. But sometimes it varies xD

Sigh.. Guess that's basically everything i can think of blogging. Nothing much. SO yup.

NIGHTS.

You have changed. I miss the old you. What have you done to her?

My flaws are what kills me

2010-10-08T21:28:00.003+08:00

So yup. Recap about our past papers.
SS> Manageable, hand hurt after that
Eng> Fun to do:)
Geog> Disappointing
Chem> Even worse ):

Still got bio,history,emath and amath! Oh not forgetting chinese-.- Oooh i think i did quit wwellfor my chinese compo today xD

Oh wells, slept for like 40mins cuz i finished the paper too early :/

So yupp gonna study now.
Nights.

I put you first in my life, sadly to you, i'm just one of the many options.

My flaws are what kills me

2010-10-08T21:28:00.000+08:00

Ohhhh her eyes, her eyes...

2010-10-02T22:21:00.001+08:00

Gosh exams are coming! Like in 2 days. Omgod. So won't be blogging much from now till like end of exams. 11 days to go! Come on! :)

So yup no problem about it(: I'm glad you liked it! Never thought you would xD

Ooh training's gonna be hell after exams. Like super hardcore. Sighhh..

Guess that's it. So yup. To those who read my blog(2 or 3) Best wishes and all the best for your exams! Also good luck all! Don't get distracted k? No con camp for me.

Nights, saranghaeyo.

I am a no one.

2010-09-26T21:27:00.001+08:00

Blog

Haha woah haven't blogged for so long.. Omgosh my blog's like so deaddd, no one's tagging.. Sigh what a loner i am. Anywaysssss..

Let's recap about the past few days shall we?

Wed
Trained under the new coach! Well i mean even though his sets are not as tough as Yuan's. But he is ALOT stricter ): Now we have to dive into the pool as if it was like competition. And he forces us to actually go for training! Hahaha i wonder how i'm gonna manage mann...

Thurs
Well it was my birthday! And A BIG SHOUT OUT to YOU! Oh the letter was awesome(: And..... THANK YOU For making my life an enjoyable one! Who is always there to cheer me up when i'm down! And also being one of my closest friends! Well actually you are the closest so yea. LOL!

Also thanks to Sarah for the "Essay" and prezzie!

And thanks to all the others who were physically there and maybe "mentally" there to wish me! Ao yup THANKS! :D

Fri
Got blasted by the coach cuz we didn't sign up for club night. :/ Sighhh, we have our reasons too yknow.

Weekends
Was probably alright. I think i've WASTED my weekend cuz i didn't study as hard as i did during the weekdays.. Sighhh.. Oh wells..

So yupp i'm done here! Omgosh. 1 WEEK to exams! Scaredddd! Oh man i really wanna train tmr ):

Nights!

I wonder if you really cared about me. Maybe you don't, or i'm probably assuming you are always busy to reply me and making me think i'm a fool for waiting. Just so you know, i'm still waiting.

Closer, closer

2010-09-21T20:55:00.002+08:00

Oh wells, another day gone, another day closer to EOYs. Argh eoys. I don't wanna go for con camp ): Ruins my hols mann. Okay lets see, what shall i blog about today..

School.
Was fine. We had Swimming PE today! And though it was fun, played polo blah blah blah. Until i accidentally got elbowed. Ouch my mouth bled for 2 hours man. And now my tongue looks like it has a piercing-.- Sighh. Lessons were productive! Got emath done:) Haha.

Hmm.. What else. Oh yes training.

Training was quite tiring today. I was dying during the im set. Probably because i was sprinting the first 3 or 4 sets. Ugh. And i think my collar bone is not in the right place again :( There's something wrong with it. It's pain whenever i swing it. Sighh.. Oh speaking of training.. Shiz man i should've trained yesterday! Stupid tuition made me miss all the drama.. Haizzzz ): Oh wells..

Kkkkkk so yup that's basically it for today. So tiredddd. Now gonna study and then sleep..

Nights.

Pre-Monday Blues

2010-09-19T22:18:00.001+08:00

Haiz so now i'm here, on my bed, slacking and typing this blog on my phone, haha i think i've been updating my blogs more on my phone but oh wells.. Parents won't lemme use the com-.- Omgosh irrelevance.
ANYWAYS

Today.
Was pretty productive. Probably got half of the 15 or 16 chapters tested for chem. Emath i need help with one topic. Stupid circles. Circles don't go well with math. Amath is good(: Just need practice. Sighhh.. So tired now..

Swimming
Has been alright too. At least now i've got my feel back, and i've been training hard recently so yeah :) Omgosh i realized i'm getting fat again! ): Nooooooooo..

Polo
Ahh shiz i haven't gone polo for a week alr :/ I think i have lost my ball sense. Ugh.

What else should i blog about..

OH today! After training! Ugh, idk whose idea it was! But i'm gonna get back at you 3! Haiii. And then YOU gave me your innocent face! Hahaha it was funny.

Yupp i think that's about it for today. Yawn.. I'm tireddd.. So yup.

Nights world.

You have no idea.. How much i..

What about me.

2010-09-18T16:42:00.000+08:00

Oh wells, another week done. Means it's getting closer to EOYs. Ugh. Unconfident, scared.

Past week
Has been alright, pretty much paying attention and stuff, except for like 2 or 3 lessons which i fell asleep or just couldn't concentrate.

Yest.
Ooh i went to SICC to celebrate my birthday with my family and ben,james,malcolm and darryl! It was fun and scary when it came to the 2nd bowling game! Super intense and pressurizing i tell you! More intense than School Nats or smth! Hahaha! But yeah it was fun. Thanks(:

This morn.
Man i was suppose to wake up at 930! Well actually i could have slept till 930.. Buttttt, my mom woke me up at 830-.- Ugh. Then had chinese tuition which i couldn't concentrate and then had science tuition! So now i'm at home typing this blog on my phone xD

Here are a lists of things you probably didn't know about me till now! Here we go:

1. I'm good at wasting time

2. I like it when the moon's a crescent/full moon.

3. I like really cool guitars.

4. I love the sound of pianos.

5. I like making someone smile
and most of alllllll

6. I love it how YOUR voice is my sweetest melody.

Hahaha okayyyy this has been a pretty long post. Or probably my longest post ever! Shiz i should be studying. Kay so i shall STOP here! Heh.

The way we were

2010-09-14T21:52:00.000+08:00

Okay so basically, i'm blogging now because i just wanna tell you smth. I hope you are reading this. Okay here it goes:

WHAT HAPPENED to us!? Like seriously. Now you don't seem like you wanna talk to me. Honestly, what's going on? I don't know what's going on right now. Well i may be assuming. But look. If you are reading this, please please please tell me why you are doing this to me? What have i done?

This is not about love. It's about the friendship that i treasured. Now, everything seems to be taken away. I want it back, let's go back to before shall we? I miss it. The times we spent hanging out, just chilling out. Or the time we spent under the rain. I missed that too. Please, don't leave me here.

Nights.

The way we were.

2010-09-14T21:50:00.000+08:00

FML

2010-09-10T12:54:00.003+08:00

Sigh.. Okay.. So basically i don't even know how to start. What the Hell.
Oh God someone save me. I can't take it anymore.
Do you know how much i love you.
how much i need you
how much i want you by my side.
I honestly want to kill myself. I've never EVER been in such a bad state in my life before. I want it all to go away.
But i can't bear to leave you. I just can't.
I have never loved you so much that i'm actually tearing while typing this. Ahh shitt.
Do you know what it feels like loving someone who's in a rush to throw you away.
I wanna show you how much i love you.
I just don't know how.
With a song? Nah my singing sucks
With instruments? Nah can't play any.
So how?
Write? Maybe.
Whenever songs in the radio play, I hear songs that can be related to you. And i wonder, If my life can ever be like that.
Taylor Swift-Mine, You belong with me.
Sigh..
Ugh.. Oh wells. I'm done ranting.

Think about it. Have you ever met any other guy who can love you as much as i do? I think it's just me. <3

I love it when you say my name.

2010-09-06T22:09:00.003+08:00

Let's recap about what i did yesterday yeah?

It was a tiring day. Double training.. Tuition in between.. Sigh i have no time to myself at all sometimes ): I'm too stressed i guess. I should start to lighten up abit. But thankfully i had you to text :D If not i would have been as good as dead. Haizzz.. OMG you gotta watch CAMP ROCK 2! The songs are awesome man! Introducing Me by Nick Jonas was good. And sweet! Go look it up n youtube! HAHA! Oh the ending was sad though ): Haizz okay should just shut up here! Don't wanna spoil it. The last song was good! This is Our Song..

TODAY
Training was good i suppose? Sets were not that bad! 4x200 im chiong! At least i was maintaining my times so not too bad. After that had a funny convo with ben,rishi and james! Hilarious and crazy scenarios. After that chinese tuition, omgawd i was gonna fall asleep. After that, English tuition! Dang how i wanted to train this afternoon ): Sighs, looks like i have to take it as "i trained alr,now focus on studies". So now i am here typing this post out.

TOMORROW!
RAFFLES IN THE MORNING! BRING IT ON!

Thus, i gotta go sleep now! Need energy!

NIGHTS!

Bad Day

2010-09-04T22:11:00.003+08:00

Okay wells looks like today has been a bad day. Training already ruined my entire day. Being chased out of her training took a toll on me. I shouldn't have done that. And i'm Sorry, won't ever repeat it again. Haizzzz..

I still wonder how does Kris and Lynn blog so longgggggg. Oh man. Oh and sarah too! Man they just type and type and type. HOW?

Training tomorrow. Hopefully it'll be good. And i don't get scolded again. Then after that play bowling or smth.

Eoys are nearinggggg ): But that means MORE HOLS ARE COMING :D Like a months time! Gotta start preparing! Needa beat this term. I did so badly.

Oh her eyes, her eyes, make the stars look like their not shining.

NIGHTS!

Fresh Start

2010-09-03T21:54:00.004+08:00

Okay wells haven't been blogging much! SO i guess this should be long post? Don't Kill me if it's too short kay Kris? Or Lynn xD

TODAY
Omgosh CIP WAS SUPER AWESOME :D Polo+CIP HOURS=SLACK! HEHEHHEHEH! OMGOSH!! BEST EVER I TELL YOU! And i was suppose to go swimming training but the thing ended too late ): Sorry for that! Oh man got my finialised report card! Average 72.8% for this term! Sighhhhh ): Gonna studyyyyy hardd already! Stupid teacher ): Mug my geog paper so lowwwwww. After dinner at the club i went to the DOCS D: There's something wrong with my leg i think. Have to go for so many treatments.. Ugh..

PAST FEW DAYS
Have been relatively alright! Been missing lots of trainings cuz of school stuff etc. Sighhh.. I have been thinking alot recently, idk if it's just me or what. But idk!

OTHERS
Yes hols are here! 1 week! I can't wait for EOYS to pass! Then the super long hols! *hint hint* OK back to business! studies 1st. 1 week break is no rest ): My days are like Training,Study,Tuition and training again! Or somrthing like that which keeps me occupied! HAHAHAH!

OMGOSH this IS ONE OF MY LONGEST POSTS! HAHAHA. Idk why i'm even updating my blog, probably cause kris and lynn asks me to update it cuz it's like dead! Hahaha kkk i'm donneeeeee! And i shall keep a constant effort to update my blog! No PROMISES though xD

NIGHTS <3>

Un-Broken.

2010-07-29T19:32:00.004+08:00

Okay wells looks like there was a misunderstanding. Everything's fine now. Yup :)

Well yes i pray that she'll care. And even if she's reading this. I just wanna tell you that i love you. Forever and always. Also, thank you for today (31st July) I was suppose to update this 2 days back. Haha.

Nights.

Wrong thoughts

2010-07-19T22:17:00.002+08:00

I think some people are getting the wrong impression. Or am i just assuming that?
Ah whatever it is, i don't really _ _ _ _ anyone.

Yup whatever you are thinking. It's not. So yup.

Nights.

False Illusions

2010-07-11T21:08:00.002+08:00

OK a short post. Omg haven't blogged for so long.. Haha. Okay anyways, well my life has been going through lots of ups and downs. Mostly downs so that sucks. So yup

TRAINING
Has been fine i guess, although i'm always terribly tired after each training.

WORLD CUP
COME ON SPAIN! WIN THE WORLD CUP! <3

Did you really care? All you type about is him him him. OK yup whatever, i can't live like this anymore.

Last

2010-05-26T06:17:00.003+08:00

Oh my haven't posted for so long..

Results
SUCKED TTM. Don't ask about it please. OMG GONNA GET REPORT BOOK TODAY!!! SHITTTT!!! =(

Sunday
Cycling was alright, just that i was dying on the way back.. Quite fun =) Haha.

SIGH... Leaving tomorrow, for like 2 weeks.. Last day in SG. Gonna miss everyone ):

You said you'll shoot me. Well then, please do it. I can't live this life anymore.

2010-03-12T21:27:00.002+08:00

Hols are here(:
Please GOD, let me get well soon.
Thanks for the awesome note. You know who you are;)

WEDDING DRESS- LYRICS
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I would argue
Then you would cry
As you’re struggling, I would only get stronger
My heartaches behind these shadows
My face brightens up as I see your smile
I worry that you might notice my feelings
And I get scared that the gap between us would widen
I hold my breath
Then I bite my lips
Then I pray that she would leave his side.

Baby, please don’t hold those hands
Cuz you should be my lady
Please look at me, I’ve been waiting all this time.

Once the music ends, you’ll be with him forever
I prayed and prayed that this day wouldn’t come
The wedding dress you once wore
The wedding dress you once wore
The wedding dress you once wore

You, who never understood my feelings
Because of that, I ended up despising you
Then I wished a misfortune upon you
But now, my eyes are dry
I try to talk to you but I realized that I’m alone
Every night, I would look back and think
If I already knew the results
Then I close my eyes
Then I dream an endless dream
Then I pray she would leave his side.

Baby, please don’t hold those hands
Cuz you should be my lady
Please look at me, I’ve been waiting all this time.

Once the music ends, you’ll be with him forever
I prayed and prayed that this day wouldn’t come
The wedding dress you once wore
The wedding dress you once wore
The wedding dress you once wore

By all means, be happy with him
So I can move on
Please erase me out of your heart
Although I tried my best but, no oh~

I’ve been living the lies for too long
Yet, she would look at me and smile.

———————

ROMANIZATIONS + KOREAN

니가 그와 다투고
niga geuwa datugo
때론 그 땜에 울고
ttaeron geu ttaeme ulgo
힘들어 할 때면 난 희망을 느끼고
himdeureo hal ttaemyeon nan huimangeul neukkigo
아무도 모르게 맘 아-아-아프고
amudo moreuge mam a-a-apeugo
니작은 미소면 또 담담해지고
nijageun misomyeon tto damdamhaejigo

니가 혹시나 내 마음을 알게 될까봐
niga hoksina nae maeumeul alge doelkkabwa
알아버리면 우리 멀어지게 될까봐
arabeorimyeon uri meoreojige doelkkabwa
난 숨을 죽여
nan sumeul jug yeo
또 입술을 깨물어
tto ipsureul kkaemureo
제발 그를 떠나 내게 오길
jebal geureul tteona naege ogil

Baby 제발 그의 손을 잡지마
Baby jebal geuui soneul japjima
Cuz you should be my Lady
오랜 시간 기다려온 날 돌아봐줘
oraen sigan gidaryeo on nal dorabwajwo

노래가 울리면 이제 너는
noraega ullimyeon ije neoneun
그와 평생을 함께하죠
geuwa pyeongsaengeul hamkkehajyo
오늘이 오지 않기를
oneuri oji ankireul
그렇게 나 매일 밤 기도했는데
geureoke na maeil bam gidohaenneunde

네가 입은 웨딩드레스
nega ibeun wedingdeureseu
네가 입은 웨딩드레스
nega ibeun wedingdeureseu
네가 입은 웨딩드레스
nega ibeun wedingdeureseu

내 맘을 몰라줬던
nae mameul mollajwotdeon
네가 너무 미워서
nega neomu miwoseo
가끔은 네가 불행하길 난 바랬어
gakkeumeun nega bulhaenghagil nan baraesseo
이미 내 눈물은 다 마 마 마르고
imi nae nunmureun da ma ma mareugo
버릇처럼 혼자 너에게 말하고
beoreutcheoreom honja neoege malhago

매일 밤 그렇게 불안했던걸 보면 난
maeil bam geureoke buranhaetdeongeol bomyeon nan
이렇게 될꺼란 건 알았는지도 몰라
ireoke doelkkeoran geon aranneunjido molla
난 눈을 감아
nan nuneul gama
끝이 없는 꿈을 꿔
kkeuchi eomneun kkumeul kkwo
제발 그를 떠나 내게 오길
jebal geureul tteona naege ogil

Baby 제발 그의 손을 잡지마
Baby jebal geuui soneul japjima
Cuz you should be my Lady
오랜 시간 기다려온 날 돌아봐줘
oraen sigan gidaryeo on nal dorabwajwo

노래가 울리면 이제 너는
noraega ullimyeon ije neoneun
그와 평생을 함께하죠
geuwa pyeongsaengeul hamkkehajyo
오늘이 오지 않기를
oneuri oji ankireul
그렇게 나 매일 밤 기도했는데
geureoke na maeil bam gidohaenneunde

네가 입은 웨딩드레스
nega ibeun wedingdeureseu
네가 입은 웨딩드레스
nega ibeun wedingdeureseu
네가 입은 웨딩드레스
nega ibeun wedingdeureseu

부디 그와 행복해
budi geuwa haengbokhae
너를 잊을 수 있게
neoreul ijeul su itge
내 초라했던 모습들은 다 잊어줘
nae chorahaetdeon moseupdeureun da ijeojwo
비록 한동안은
birok handonganeun  no oh
나 죽을 만큼 힘이 들겠지만
na jugeul mankeum himi deulgetjiman no oh

너무 오랜 시간을 착각 속에
neomu oraen siganeul chakgak soge
홀로 바보처럼 살았죠
hollo babocheoreom saratjyo
아직도 내 그녀는 날 보고
ajikdo nae geunyeoneun nal bogo
새 하얗게 웃고 있는데
sae hayake utgo inneunde

네가 입은 웨딩드레스
nega ibeun wedingdeureseu
네가 입은 웨딩드레스
nega ibeun wedingdeureseu
네가 입은 웨딩드레스
nega ibeun wedingdeureseu

Regrets

2010-03-06T07:17:00.002+08:00

Regretting everything i've ever done.
Give up?
Considering.

2010-02-22T22:03:00.001+08:00

I love you, it's all i can say.

Wishes aren't real.

2010-02-19T21:48:00.003+08:00

If only i could be a star in the sky (:

Another typical friday nighttt...

2010-01-15T20:54:00.002+08:00

Yup 1st time i'm not using the com to blog.. Yup anws today was kinda lousy.. Pratically everyday is.. Nothing ever gets better i guess.. Now stuck doing math-.-

Dun have much to blog about anws.. So yup nites.

I toss and turn and lie in my bed, thinking of you and your majestic smile.
However, what i get out of this is ur ignorance. Why?

2-0-1-0

2010-01-01T12:32:00.003+08:00

Thank GOD 2009 is over.. Man tht year totally sucks =( So many downs.. Sigh..

Alright, school's re-opening in like 4 days =( Hols are gonna be over.. Well New year= New life= New changes
Basically anything new or yeah whatever.. Hopefully this year won't be another screw-up like last year =)

Well i would like to thank a bunch of people who had always been there for me whenever i'm feeling down or whatever but yeah.. A big thank you to Kris, Sarah and Ben for everything! =)

Oh wells wishing you guys a WONDERFUL 2010! Hope u guys enjoy the year ahead =)

<3>

I can't bear to leave u alone, I'm afraid of losing you. I'll fight for you.

Off and away!

2009-12-06T18:11:00.003+08:00

Oh wells.. I'm leaving for KOREA! Although my flight is like at 11.30 i gotta leave for the airport now.. Sigh. This would be my last post until i return =( Hopefully there will be wi-fi at the hotels! =))

THANK YOU some1 for helping me with my MH account! U should know who u are! Ly =)
Kris> Hope ur having fun in JAPAN! =) Remember buy me sth arh! jkjk ;)

And to Kris,Sarah,Ben,Shifu and BFF(mark chan) I WILL get u something! SO dun worry!

Sigh won't be training for dam long! WIll grow fat! =(( Hahahs oh wells..

Will definitely miss you guys! Take care! =)

You know i LY <3

Baby i will miss you when i'm gone.. When your mine in the world thre's gonna be one less lonely girl. <33

2009-12-03T21:46:00.003+08:00

Hahaha wow wow 20th post =)) Kinda an achievement for me since i hardly blog xD

LIFE is sorta pretty screwed now.. And i got a freaking lectured by my mom about being irresponsible blah blah blah.. Everyday also kenna.. Freaking pissed off! And then tuition and stuff and my mom wants me to do more work during the hols and i'm like wtf it's the hols man?! Give ME a break =.=

TRAINING is killing me! All the LONG D sets keep making me tired! ARGH! And polo training keeps interfering with swimming.. I think there's something wrong with me.. Everytime i go swimming training i dun feel like training and feel like going polo! And everytime i go polo i feel like going for swimming! Wth? Can't even train swimming tmr cuz of polo! Hopefully i dun needa rush! =(

Falling deeper and deeper.. What should i do now? I'm caught in the middle and i don't see any way of escaping?? What should i do now? GIVE UP ON LOVE? OR FIGHT FOR IT? Someone please help! =(( STUCK AND LOST..

Two is better than one.. U know ILY <3

2009-11-10T23:01:00.001+08:00

Hello!
I'm COOOOOOL. And I'm bored. And I'm going to delete this post soon. (:
So! I went training today. That's about it. (: I'm COOOOL for that. And this post is superrrr awesomeeeee. And I'm BORED. CSI is on now. It's 11.04. (:

2009-11-07T20:01:00.001+08:00

Yesterday
Club night was kinda pathetic.. Did very bad for all my events and even scratched an event too! =)
Today
Polo training was felt kinda great today! =) Despite the weather, which was so dam bloody hot! And i had tuition after that =.= but was surprisingly quite okay as well! hahaha =)) And now i'm forced to do work! Cuz tmr i'll be out the whole day =(

So yup ttyl! Gotta do math now.. =.=

<3

2009-11-05T21:52:00.002+08:00

Hey again! =)

Well my life was pretty much filled with sadness and boring-ness again today.. Thankfully, i could skip golf thanks to the rain =) Had bowling and lunch instead =)

After 2dy was like the 2nd best movie i have ever watched! 1st was transformers! LOL!
Anyways THIS IS IT by Michael Jackson was super awesome! OMG everyone shld check it out! =)

Hahaha okay that's all.. Bye!

<3

I'm only up when you're not down
Don't wanna fly if you're still on the ground
It's like no matter what I do
Well you drive me crazy half the time
The other half I'm only trying to let you know
That what I feel is true
And I'm only me when I'm with you

2009-11-03T21:06:00.003+08:00

Overall, Today sucked.. Somehow training felt weird and was defnitely boring

Sigh, Sadness overwhelming me now.. Trying to fight the wave of despair and a world filled with loneliness.. Oh baby only if u could feel how i feel.. Everyday i feel like there's a missing hole in my heart..

But there are these few he/she people that would cheer me up and encourage me to move on! =) Thanks u dudes and dudettes(not sure how to spell)! =) ILYG!

<3

2009-11-02T21:52:00.000+08:00

Training
Hahaha Polo training was such a drag =.=/ got sunburned like crazy! Everywhere also red! Then worse! Tmr also have training.. Sigh.. However thank God there was swimming training in the afternoon =) It was somehow incredibly awesome =) The water was cool and everything just felt great =) Hope tmr wld be the same =)

Lectured =.=
Again, got freaking lectured by my mom.. Saying stuff that she would disown me cuz I dun show enough respect and blah blah blah.. Kris and Sarah said the same thing.. about parents being unfair! Izzit true? Maybe it’s just for our own good.. but whatever! =)

Okay that’s it for now =) Dam tired! But still an awesome day despite the lecture =.= 7/10 =)

<3

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life
And I thought hey
You know this could be something
'Cause everything you do and words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away
And now I'm left with nothing

So maybe it's true, that I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
But There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two, is better than one

I love you <3
But u just don’t give me a chance to prove my worth to you =(

Weekend Windown

2009-11-01T22:17:00.002+08:00

Oh wells.. Finally.. Skool has come to an end. Which is a good thing and a bad thing.. My weekend was somehow AWESOME and it was one of the best weekends i ever had! =)

SATURDAY! 8/10
Went for training in the morning which was surprisingly quite okay. =)
16x15 16x20 16x25 2(6x100 + 8x15) 16x15 kick! All MEDLEY!

After that! Day was ruined due to tuition and was late for a more important outing xD
But still.. Had loads of fun and freezing at EAST COAST PARK as we were somehow running, walking and cycling in the rain! Man it was freezing! And i made a new achievement without falling down! And terribly sorry to KATHERINE TAY for making her shirt.. Erm nvm.. And also very sorry to Kris, Sarah, james for waiting for me as i did not know where to go! =( After returning the bikes we had to walk like 1.6km to the restaurant in the freaking cold rain! Man our legs were gonna break man! =(
Then, we got a lift to ben's house! Which was sooo fun! =) We played cards and truth or dare in the attic which was kinda fun and funny! We should do that again sometime eh? =) Then went home to celebrate my bro's bdae -.- Which was somewhat quite boring cuz his frenz were like all geeks! xD Slept at 12 and was friggin tired =(

SUNDAY 6/10
Skipped morning training and got lectured in the freaking car twice by parents =.= Dun ask my why cuz it is quite a ridiculous reason! And to my amazement, the never tired our girl didn't turn up for training! Hahaha kris u shld noe who i am refering to right? xD After that played maple(sorry lar not choice, nothing better to do already xD) and had chinese tuition which was soo awkward and boring!

And noe i am going to sleep cuz i am super tired! Got polo training in the morning tmr! =( Kay byes!

<3
Taylor Swift- I'm only me when i'm with you =) <3
I don't wanna live without you.
I'm only up when your not down
Don't wanna fly if your still on the ground
It's like no matter what i do
well u drive me crazy half the time
the other half i'm only trying to let you know that what i feel is true
and i'm only me when i'm with you

2009-10-29T21:40:00.002+08:00

LAST DAY OF SKOOL
But to everything.. there's a good side and a flipside.. =(
Gonna miss all my clssmates this year! =( Awesome time we spent together! Thanks to soccer ppl! My retarded family! And people despite being smart, definetely has a fun side in them! =) A BIG THANK YOU TO ALL OF YOU! =) *SOB* Gonna miss all of you! KEEP IN TOUCH KAY? xD
However, my new class isn't that bad! At least theres the 2.9 ppl coming! As well as 4 ppl in 2.1! OR maybe 5 if i counted correctly! LOL! Hopefully it will be fun nxt year! =) SOCCER!

Again, emo-ness has risen over me =( Sigh counting down. 2 days =)

But everytime i leave my heart turns grey. And i.. Cuz I just can't take it..
Another day without u with me.. is like a blade that cuts right through me.
But i can wait.. I can Wait forever..
When your gone my heart stops beating, when ur gone it won't stop bleeding.
I can wait. I can wait forever..
you look so beautiful today =)
<3

2009-10-27T21:33:00.002+08:00

Hey again =)
Skool was soooo boring =(
Bowling was fun =) Sarah, Grace and berenice were there and a few others i couldn't remember their names xD And Reyan told me something but i don't know if i shld tell any1 xD HAHAHAH!

Sigh got kicked ut of training by barry again =.="

Now nothing to do. So boring and sad =(

okay tht's all then.. Bye =)

<3

maybe it's true, that i can't live without you.
maybe two is better than one <3

Another boring day..

2009-10-26T20:33:00.002+08:00

Sigh 2dy was uber boring.. School was such a drag and CIP too.. =( Could not go training at all =(

I hope skool won't be that bad tmr.. but there is gonna be some Chinese Karaoke thingy.. =( SIAN!!

Counting down.. 5 days.. =)

Sigh.. bored bored bored =(

OKAY tht's it.. Nothing else to write =(

BYE!
Taylor Swift- I'm only me when i'm with you =)
I don't wanna live without you.
I'm only up when your not down
Don't wanna fly if your still on the ground
It's like no matter what i do
well u drive me crazy half the time
the other half i'm only trying to let you know that what i feel is true
and i'm only me when i'm with you
----------------------- Chorus ONLY------------------------------------
Love this song =)
<3

2009-10-25T21:22:00.002+08:00

Hey all =)
Sigh 2dy was kinda okay.. Had training and bowling after that =) Kinda fun =) Kenneth was on fire man! But too hao lian until last game play like shit.. xD HAHAHAHA

Getting ready for skool tmr =( Sucks And i can't believe there's CIP =( No polo.

Counting down the days =)

Oh man if i only i could be with you =(
I miss you so.
Too hurt to let go
You showed me how, how to live like i do <3

"As we grow older together, As we continue to change with age, There is one thing that will never change. . . I will always keep falling in love with you."- Karen Coldfelder

NUMBER 13

2009-10-24T21:39:00.002+08:00

Sigh.. My life totally sucked TTM 2dy.. It was so horrible.. OK i shall tell you what happened during my life 2dy..

MORNING TRAINING!
> Got lectured by barry cuz of my stupid work ethic and stuff like that

Edmund's house
> was okay.. not tht bad..

Now it starts......
Had bowling and i somehow pwned Ben's bowling score =)
But somehow got owned by 2 girls =(( HAHAHA but it was not bad..

AND CYCLING!! OMG IT WAS SO HORRIBLE BUT FUN!!!!!
>Totally lost feel of using the bicycle and collided so many time.. The worst of the worst was the one i fell onto the road =.= And fortunately i didn't get crushed! After that another collision with another biker.. Sigh cuts everywhere and wounded leg.. OMG! Kris said i was leaving blood trails..LOL!
After this got owned by my mom! I almost got away with it but it was ruined due to some big mouth idiot.. And there goes my outing plans.. grounded for i don't noe how long =( sigh.. Life just sucks for me =(

LYRICS
Where are you now- Honor Society( spent half an hour) -.-
-Whoo-
To My favourite teacher, Told me never give up
To my fifth-grade crush who i thought i really loved
To the guys i miss and the girls we kissed
Where are you now
To my ex best friends, Don't know how we grew apart
To my favourite bands, And sing-alongs in my car
To the face i see in my memories
Where are you now
Where are you now
Cause i'm thinking of you
You showed me how, how to live like i do
If it wasn't for you, I would never be who i am
To my first girlfriend, I thought for sure was the one
To my last girlfriend sorry that i screwed it up
To the ones i loved, i didn't show it enough
Where are you now
Where are you now
Cause i'm thinking of you
You showed me how, how to live like i do
If it wasn't for you, I would never be who i am
I know i'll never see those days again
And things will never be that way again
But that shows how it goes
People change but i know i won't forget you
To the ones who cared, Who were there from the start
To the love that left, And took a piece of my heart
To the few who'd swear, I'd never go anywhere
Where are you now
Where are you now
Cause i'm thinking of you
You showed me how, how to live like i do
If it wasn't for you, I would never be who i am
If it wasn't for you, I would never be who i am
IF it wasn't for you, I would never be who i am
--------------------END--------------------------

This song especially goes to KRIS and SARAH! THANK YOU! =)

CHEERS!

2009-10-23T22:17:00.000+08:00

Hahaha OKAY FINALLY back to blogging.. Anyways..
TRAINING is quite okay.. Arms aching all over.. Gonna get up for training tmr morning as well =) May Be going Bowling AGAIN! =))
School results kinda sucked for chinese xD but it's chinese right? xD
OK thanks to kris cuz u reminded me about my blog LOL! HAHAHAHA

OK alright cheers =)
Nothing to talk about. :X
Where are you now- Honor Society
AWESOME SONG!! HELL YEAH =)

Good Day

2009-06-29T20:32:00.002+08:00

Sighs, Back on the blog again.. Sorry haven't been on for awhile cuz i had to study:( Eeks..

Hahaha 1st day of school sucked as it was so boring tht i almost fell asleep.. And can't believe 2 schools closed and i wished my and my frenz school were closed too.. Anyways.. Training 2dy was kinda awesome as me kris and nick did long distances=( and sprints which turned out to be quite fun but tiring.. HAHA AND KENNETH AND SEAN OMG they were dam funny in the toilet and in the pool!! Haha

And especially sorry to 1 person fr screaming abit loudly 2dy and like a Well tht person wld noe.. Anyways yeah Leave a comment k On the Cbox lol..

Got a lecture frm my mom in the care about some exams and must prepare like 2 months be4 and i was like ohkay??? Lol

Anyways i gtg now :'( So talk to ya soon yeah?

Check Ya later!

Bryan =)

What A day! =)

2009-06-26T14:20:00.002+08:00

OMG TRANSFORMERS REVENGE OF THE FALLEN WAS THE MOST AWESOMEST MOVIE I'VE WATCHED IN MY ENTIRE LIFE!! IT WAS THE BOMB!!!!!

Hahaha.. yes it was like a super good movie and i strongly recommend tht all of u people who haven't watched it go and watch it!!! =))

Well morning training was kinda fun and slack.. Did drills and some swims and relays.. Kinda boring.. Oh wells there's dryland this afternoon and definitely looking forward to it=))

OK tht's all for now. =) Talk to ya later

Signing off,
Bryan =)

Transformers!!!(#@&@*#

2009-06-25T17:12:00.002+08:00

Hey hey people!!! =)) After an hour sleep *yawn* and reading my storybook XD.. It's time for me to watch the newest release TRANSFORMERS 2!!! #@*&#($&#(

Okay okay.. James and malcolm watched it 2dy but sadly i couldn't join them cuz my father already booked tickets for tonight's movie.. :'(

Sad sad.. okay i haven't started on my hols hw yet but i hope they'll announce another week of hols so i can do my work *wink*

okay tht's all for me now.. I'll ttyl!!! See ya people!!! =)

Bryan

2009-06-25T14:05:00.001+08:00

Phew finally crea8ed 1

2009-06-24T22:03:00.000+08:00

Hey hey!! =)) FINALLY created my own blog.. Maybe cuz i was kinda bored so i did it.. oh wells.. hahaha.. Sigh training being injured is soooo tiring.. My arms are aching.. But i got to work hard now!!! Evry1 overtake me already sia... :'(

Okay this is my 1st post.. So i don't really have anything to post.. Sry!